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28 July 2009 @ 03:53 am
Adapt yourself to the things among which your lot has been cast and love sincerely the fellow creatures with whom destiny has ordained that you shall live.

-Marcus Aurelius


Constantinople, 983 AD
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I arrive at the meeting in her evening "entertaining" haven. My soldier's boots and garb seem well out of place. Her chambers are adorned with art, perfumes, and silk...all the trappings of her lands and vices. I have not even bothered to remove my kit or cloak before the scent reaches me. It can only be described as equal parts civilization and hedonism, the perfume blending with the opium.

She is lounging on padded cushions with the brass pipe playing between her fingers, surrounded by attendants. Her pale complexion and hair matches my own, but her slender features mark her as from the East, where my blood is of the West. Her beauty is exotic and stunning.

She laughs a little when I step in. The laugh has mirth, but I do not mistake the tone. I've heard the same laugh from matrons in the arena and the Ventus Nex's spies.

"Hell's fire...handsome but rough is how they described the Wolf of Vibius. Your reputation did not do either claim justice. Enter and be welcome."

I am surprised that she speaks my language so passably. I respond with the Greek of the city.

"I come as requested Lady al-Khafid, in the service of the Dominus Noctis Imperator. My patron requested that I perform a task for his most effective and valued Speaker."

She orders her servants to depart. They do so as if commanded to by an angry God, though her tone is as sweet as honey. She moves her own words to the tongue of the Greeks.

"Not the unlearned brute that some would have led me to believe as well. Interesting indeed. Well my learned Barbarian, we shall see if you are suited to the task at hand..."


Constantinople, 1032 AD
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I stand in the Chamber and Forum of the Imperator. The Mystikoi monks record the proceedings at a rapid pace as the Lancea+Sanctum priests continue their diatribe on her. She bears no cracks to her composure, but she has reason for concern. They want her dead. Despite her loyal service to the city, her favorite pastime has become the social demolition of many of their clergy. The Dominus Noctis Imperator must follow tradition and prestation. He cannot save her, not publicly. She has gone too far.

She captivates me. I can hardly fathom it, but her civilized hedonism is the counter to my own state and tastes. Beyond her flesh there is the juxtaposition of her monstrous abandon coupled with her grasp of civility. She is a monster, but one far different from me. We have shared much, and I would not see her gone from my Requiem.

I speak up. The Imperator flashes a slight smile. The Ventus Nex
raises a surprised eyebrow. Galen of Alexandria gives a slight shrug, but little knowledge escapes his sharp ears. He knows of the Speaker and I.

"I will only tolerate her exile."

The Presbyters begin to balk and chatter. I rebuke them as my talons come forward, a simple threatening point to note to them that now is the time for silence. They know I listen to their council, but they also know I watch the walls that keep them safe. I have rarely spoken on events beyond my station or office, thus my words are often heeded those times when I do so.  I take this rare opportunity to spend such a coin and back it with my dangerous reputation.

"She will pass safely beyond these walls. Whatever state that the Lady Al-Khafid is in upon her departure from the Jewel of the East shall be the one you bear as well,for I will be certain to show as much zeal or temperance as your most holy example provides."

I see the fear in their eyes. I see the smirk on her face and the sense of relief wash over her
. I will miss her but she will be safe.


Constantinople, 1187 AD
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She plays her fingers along my scars. She always bears that smirk, as she traces along the gift the Roman officer gave me along my right eye, the gladius cut along my chest, and the spear wound along my left arm.

"Are you truly glad I am returned to you my learned Barbarian? You must know that I care for you most. Do I not show my affections appropriately?"

I scoff slightly as she scolds me.

"You certainly cannot be angry with me. I do not begrudge your affections and attention to the fetching Varangian woman, though she is far from civilized."


I smile a wolfish grin in response.

"I do not begrudge you your Roman Decimus, or even the Moor who claims you as his love. They lack a key quality."

'What is that pray tell?"

"They are not me."

She laughs at my statement, grabbing my hair playfully.


Berlin, 1944 AD
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I sit in the bunker after my meeting with the Prince. My face still bears the results of my last feeding, a messy ordeal. I wear the uniform of an officer of the day, medals, boots, and dress coat to match. However my surroundings and the blood on my face would suggest I am a prisoner or a madman. I flex my claws and idly pick them along the stone floor as I take measure of the situation.

I have barely recovered from my sleep and cannot recall the last year, a frenzied blur of violence and feeding, lost to the Beast and Fog. The bombings woke me too soon, and the Beast had it's price at the expense of soldier and citizen alike. I find it hard to care, though the Prince did not see things the same way despite sharing the blood of our Clan. He was not so irritated to not call upon my debt though. Ever the pragmatic one he was, one of the only ancients such as myself to survive Bohemia's revolt and a century marked by "Magdeburg Mercy." He is a killer as I am, and would have me at his side rather than leave.

I hear two soldiers approaching, with the slight measured steps of a third. The armed men unlock the door and lead a woman into my chamber. Her skin is pale, and hair dyed brown, but even the conservative fashions cannot hide her eyes. Her face tears through the Fog like a razor. She bids them to depart in German, and they do so...like they were commanded by an angry God.

She leans down and kisses me, the blood of a score of men still adorning my lips and mouth. It is equal parts tender greeting, passion, and predatory gesture.

It truly is her.

"You have seen better days my learned Barbarian."

I smile, my wit returning to me. She has always had that effect upon me.

"At least the uniform is fetching. I fear the Austrian painter's eventual failure will ruin Dress Grey for at least a century though. You however look like a house frau."

Her withering look at my statement suggests she shares both my opinions. She motions me to the door. I stop her, my hand on her shoulder.

"This new Germany is doomed. Death falls from the sky, and no force can face twin fronts from so potent a collective of foes. However, I cannot leave. The Prince has called upon my Oaths. I must stay and repay his hospitality. The Northman has my word, even as he profits from the slaughter and spends the lives of others to keep his own safe."

She smiles a little and then two others, obviously under her thrall, enter with a crate of some measure.

"I have no intention of letting you die for that creature. Your Oath prevents you from leaving of your own free will..."

She produces a sharpened rowan shaft from the container and smiles.

"...but it says nothing of others taking you from here. The Prince owes me, and as such you cannot do harm to one under his rule and prestation without his leave. You cannot stop me from taking you from here...or you break your Oath."

"This is a most unlikely rescue."

"Certainly, but no matter who would or might come for you, they simply lack one quality love...

...they are not me."


I barely begin to laugh when she slides the stake into my chest.
 
 
Current Mood: nostalgic
 
 
crimson_tales
Before God I swear this creed. My rifle and myself are the defenders of my country. We are the masters of our enemy. We are the saviors of my life. So be it, until victory is America's and there is no enemy, but Peace.

-USMC Rifleman's Creed

Earlier:

I'm loading this "magic gun" and wondering to myself if these people have any idea why the hell I'm really here. Burst knows. I know. Ripper knows. If I can't get him out, then that's that.

I hate these Anti-Vehicle rigs, but I'm going need big damn bullets....



Later:

BA down. Burst down......fuck......

....where the fuck are you when I need you Vince?

Well that's that. He's got him grabbed.....he wanted it this way man...he didn't want to pumped for for intell....

This is my rifle, there are many like it but this one is mine...



Later still:

Well, I'm about spill all manner of shit left and right, but somehow I think this is better than if they got him.

It's better this way.

Don't let them see you sweat.

But I am. I'm not getting out of this. I am going to die.

Maybe that's for the best.


Conclusion:

I've seen Bernie, but Sunny's in the middle of something so she won't come. I left all the important stuff to who it needs to go to.

Skip here is trying not to cry. She's not as good at it as I am. She's trying to tell me something, but I can't make it out. I know she's here for the same reason I broke a metric ton of laws to get Ripper out. I see her set the gun on the table.

She's letting me use some magic...I can't really run. That would be on her.

I collect my Mind and all it's parts.....I think on the good times....

I remember a day driving with Sunny.....our first kiss....fighting with Bernie and getting back with her....I never told her how much I loved her accent no matter how much it annoyed other people.....huh....the best times of my life were in that car...I guess that's why I left it to Skip.....I remember when Dad wasn't beating us, Adam and I would skip out past the Bayou and go fishing.....the first time I had Dixie beer....drinks with all the guys....even that one time when...

*BLAM*
 
 
crimson_tales
27 June 2008 @ 03:06 am
"As iron sharpens iron, so a man sharpens the countance of his friend."

-Proverbs 27:17, The Bible


I have called the miracle.

I am burning.

I have named the architects of my demise...I am Damned...but in my Damnation I find purpose.....

They have no idea. They thought I the dangerous one. My friend....no.....brother and sister will see to them. I acted as a monster because it was what He wished of me....they are simply monsters...others too....ships without rudders, ready to crash....

My family, the lost and found, those with a sense of purpose....they will see to the task.....

So much left undone....unfinished...unknown....

Better to die like this with flame causing fear and discord....if the traitors die so much the better...a wall of flame to shield my allies and trap the rest.....

The coin for my brother, the book for my sister....they leave my message......those who have keys know what I have taught them....

Fear not death, lest your Purpose be forgotten...

God grant me not revenge with my final prayer, but a chance to see Your shining face before I am cast where I belong. I have done thy bidding. Your humble servant awaits You.

Amen.
 
 
crimson_tales
12 October 2007 @ 04:03 pm
For a good cause, wrongdoing is virtuous.

-Publilius Syrus, Maxims

Kneeling at the alter, I go through the motions I have for hundreds of years. I speak the tongue of the Latins in the way it was spoken at Rome's height in supplication before I begin. The oddly shaped scourge in the brazer has sat just long enough to make the metal hot. I gird my will and steel my flesh in preparation.


"The Testament and Canons are clear upon the only crime worthy of death. I have broken this canon recently within the past, and ask that you accept my penance, oh Lord. Know that I do all that I must for the glory of our Purpose. Know that I keep to the holy task you have given unto me. I as your willing servant, accept my role within your Divine Plan. I am God's Holy Monster, a drinker of mankind. I sup at the table of man's folly and sin. I make this world his prison. I bring him ruin as a testing pestilence that only your Divine Light can prevent.

I make men worthy of your love. I hold the Damned to our given task. I hold sacred your works and Traditions, given unto us by our very Damnation. I do what I must in your name.

I do not ask your forgiveness for I am Damned, but I merely ask that you accept my offering and know that I am still your humble servant."

The lash burns me, boiling the skin and flesh beneath. The combustion is only stopped by the fortitude of my undying flesh and the blood of sinners within me.

Each lash of my penance provokes thought of the cause of it...the ending of one's Damnation. I reflect on the death of one who would slay other Damned with little cause, and my blade in his neck. I reflect on the nun who embraced her young charges, and my order to burn and salt the earth of her home. I reflect on her charges given to the fire.

I failed them. Apostates. Murderers. Anathema. Those that breach the Traditions. I did not reach them before they were too far gone.

There is still hope for others. Let their first steps towards such begin soon. I pray for them.

I continue to swing until the lash breaks and will my wounds closed.

"Amen."
 
 
Current Location: New Orleans
Current Mood: thoughtful
 
 
crimson_tales

Victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win.

-Sun-Tzu

I sit waiting for this device of modern artifice to break through the sky and take me to exchange an ancient blessing for an ancient oath...

I think only of victory. Either the Saint will defeat her in the end, or I will give him proper retribution.

His daughter bears more merit in my one meeting with her than several I have groomed in my many years. I heed the Saint's last request by acceptance of her offer.

I feel the brush of three black feathers between my fingers as I ponder on this...where words or steel may fail, my faith will gird me in this struggle.

Sodom and Gomorrah could not stand a divine reckoning. One powerful Damned made myth will be no different should the battle come to that. Myths cannot stop the will of God. I will be as the Word made flesh, and nothing will stop me.

Modern lights glow a dim orange behind glass. The feathers remain soft even now. Both remind me of her hair. She wakes, moves, and speaks with her other....my sister...she misses me...more reckonings for the future.

Yet I still wonder if I shall smile upon seeing her red curls and dark eyes again?

 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
crimson_tales
09 June 2006 @ 10:12 am

Most powerful is he who has himself in his own power.
 
 -Seneca


I sit as Judith tells me the missives that have reached me and I take interest at the lack of respect in some of the communiques.


I sit, thinking of the legacy I will leave before the end of a century. I leave sins that are of the last two centuries as stewards...the oldest three coming to an accord. The youngest beyond reproach and returned to my eyes from the last twenty years.


Still there are lessons that must be taught to the flock before I rest. Lessons that I have taught my sins.


Judith...compose this and send it to the Faithful over the forum. It is time they read my words again...I will be civil in that fair warning will be fairly given...

My servant complies, a hint of fear and equal desire in her movements. All is as it should be.


Yes your Eminence...


To my Brothers and Sisters in Longinus,


I oft peruse the debates on this channel, though I am loathe to engage in them using this medium. Of late the ideal of the Curia has been brought up...


The Curia or some form of it has existed as those of the clergy have risen in rank. It never has ruled the Lancea Sanctum, but has been a guiding hand regarding our faith, doctrine, and predatory role. It has been the tool by which the whole of the Sanctified declares that which is Heresy and Anathema.


I am an elder predator. The words of the Monachus have fallen on these ears. I exalt my role as God wishes. I do not skirt the Ninth Canon. I exemplify it.


Even when an elder predator falters he can show wisdom... Cardinal Gialotti himself admitted to his mistake of breach of ancient law and sought council. Carlo realized his bloodlust and years were weighing upon him. Why did he not ask his faithful Paladins not to hold his body?


He did not want you to be targeted for his mind and Beast needing sleep. He wanted you to continue your role unburdened by the responsibility of his self-admitted rash act. He wanted peace between the Estates even if his ire for the Savages and Suren-Gal burned deep.


He told me his intentions and made his preparations. I said I would remain silent until his safety was assured.


To those who served him, honor his wishes and consider the wisdom of his act. Do not seek battles when our foes have seen the error of their ways. I speak of Suren-Gal...


What of Suren-Gal?


Suren-Gal realized that his edict threatened the Faith of the Lance. Suren-Gal recanted. And yet we watch him as he is in Tampa as I write this missive, those of the Curia ready for any treachery, ready to call the Holy Spear to strike at a dissembling viper if necessary.


The Curia is what the Monachus intended with the Ninth Canon. If he did not seek a guiding hand, then why were there Bishops? Then why did he found his Monastery and ask for those to learn at his feet?


"Guiding hands" are another term for teachers. In many ways this is what the Monachus was.  He was not above any of us, but he was the scribe for God's will...The words of Longinus, given His purpose, manifested by learned skill and Divine Will.


By sniping, biting, and attacking the Curia, you spit on those who have given canonization to those who have given much, even their Requiems, for the faith as Black Saints...for we anoint them as such.


By sniping, biting, and attacking the Curia, you spit on those who came before you, who were once a part of it's ranks, sleeping as He intended, names lost to the Fog...ready for His call for Purpose when they rise.


By sniping, biting, and attacking the Curia, you spit on our most revered teacher, the Monachus, by sullying his intent.


No matter how you may claim you respect a member of it, by attacking it, you attack me, as I am a member of it's ranks.


I have already proven God's Will in the ritae of Recontre once this year to one on this point. The one I faced bears the scar of the battle forever as reminder, and he stands as the exalted predator of his flock still...


But I am the superior Predator. I am the wiser predator.


The Wisest Predator shall rule.


If you wag your tongue, tap these modern keys, or pen a missive that belies nothing less than respect for the Curia in its tone, then you betray the sacrifice that many have made and continue to make for God's Purpose for the Damned.


I encourage debate, discussion, and even polite disagreement on interpretations of the Canons and even the Curia. Debate is a flowering of learning in many ways. I enjoy it most in person as I find this type of "debate" droll and lacking spirit....


...but I will NOT suffer a lack of respect.


If any Sanctified continues to do so...then I would be profoundly grateful for the opportunity to defeat such a person. And the next who speaks out without the proper respect will bear more than a scar...


I will start with the body part that conveyed the disrespect.


You will be left as a wailing testament to the sensation of pain, a herald to the wages of impolite spindle, an unliving monument to the price paid for angering a wiser and superior predator...


Me.


Ipse Sanctus.


Sum Sanctus.


In the Name of God Almighty and Longinus,


His Eminence Tiernan Cardinal Callaghan
Exemplar of Little Rock
Cardinal-Prince of the Curia Cruentas
Legionnaire
Scholar and Defender of the Faith

 
 
Current Mood: predatory
Current Music: None
 
 
crimson_tales
26 April 2006 @ 06:06 am

“No hatred is so bitter as that of near relations.”

-Cornelius Tacitus

I hear my eldest Paladin’s voice as I near the atrium. I tell him I will tend my garden before I sleep. He does not know I did not make him a tool of political gain because I value his honor. My mask with him must remain as well, but his loyalty I do not question...I am the closest thing he has to a father. He has seen behind the mask, and knows why I wear it.

I stare at my garden, tended well, but in need of work. I take my shears and begin going over each rose in turn.

I see them tearing, reaching, calling for his blood. There is no unity in my family based on my son’s actions. He is the most skilled, and the least faithful.

This will not stand. A good gardener knows when to prune his charges and cut them if they rot.
 
My sire is not worthy of what she gave me…my grandsire’s mistake. A conversation we have yet to have. I am much of what he is, yet different. Am I the monument to him that she could defame and defile at her whim?

I cut the flower’s thorns. Sarah will learn her place. She is the most loyal, but will learn humility at my hands with another outburst.

I tend to the wilting petals of its sister. Faith will grow stronger in her role, if she is to stand when I sleep.

I water the dying rose in hope it will grow again soon. William will learn his role and that of what my sins entail or…

I grasp my shears tightly.

 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Johnny Cash-Personal Jesus
 
 
crimson_tales
"Do you believe in fairies? … If you believe," he shouted to them, "clap your hands; don't let Tink die."

James M. Barrie, Peter Pan


There are times I am reminded that I am a good person every odd day. As much as my acts say so…this was not one of those days.

I had gone to see a movie with Sunny at some point but I took her back to her place. It was really our place at this point, but I still kept my old apartment as it was my mailing address and the government was still paying for it during my stint here on this caseload. I had an early morning and I kept my files there, so I was going to crash there. It also happens to be where the less than reputable people in my life know to find me. The office and Sunny’s were off limits.

So no shit there I am laying in bed, happily dreaming after having a wonderful night with my girl, when my abode is the recipient of a loud rapping at said chamber door. It turned out not to be a little raven, or even the police as the loudness of the knock suggested…

There, on the stoop of my apartment, now threatening my neighbors in a Tequila induced haze with a .357 Magnum is Smoke.

And he’s crying.

Smoke.

Crying.

Fuck.

“Get inside…now…”

I mollify my neighbors with a cock and bull story about Smoke being a buddy from the service with issues and quickly disarmed him as he came into my common room. What made Smoke into to a weepy drunken wreck was pretty damn clear to me. Only one thing could make this man loose his collective shit this badly.

It had to do with Belle or “Tink” as we call her. This little bundle of light and energy that has eyes older than any you have ever seen. A wisp of a thing not yet a woman, dealing not only with a hard life but the crackling power under her veins… the result of what I can only figure is a pre-birth Awakening.

“She's fuckin gone and I ain't got a fuckin clue and I've got not fuckin idea and where the fuck the fuckin fuck is she? Motherfucker, fuckin bullshit you Bacon motherfucker help me!”

No matter our sins, even monsters can love. I had seen him casually put bullets in people like most folks buy groceries. Smoke loved his sister.

"I’ll take care of it man, sleep it off, I’ll go right now..."

Cue a call to my office saying I had to look into a CI that had bailed on me and a quick call to Sunny to tell her what was really going on. I head to the ramshackle house that Smoke and Tink always seem to come home to in DC. The trash looked like someone had been ordering take out quite a bit, but it was not piling up and the house was in order. With what I know of their living habits, the principle of Occham’s Razor suggested that Tink had been home for a while and Smoke had been out a lot.

Smoke’s reactions indicate that she left alone or at least with someone he didn’t know. It also suggests that Tink had been gone long enough to scare him, and was nowhere nearby that Smoke could find her via her resonance.

This means that she likely traveled mundanely, and was at least out of the state. Occham’s Razor cuts though most things. There wasn’t a receipt in the trash for a plane ticket. All the take-out tickets suggest that cash was used to pay the delivery guys, so this means that she probably bought a bus ticket.

I could spend the next 2 days figuring out where she went, but given the situation here I resort to magic.

When finding someone with magic, it’s easier with a link. All it takes is a little bit of mundane effort and the right tools. I look around the little room that screams 13 year old, arranged in sort of a bizarre cross between neat freak and clutter, and past the magazines that have been cannibalized for some teenage-collage. I take out my evidence bag and sweep under the bed with an adhesive pad and take a few prints from areas a person touches only when they climb into bed.

Clean, but not clean enough. Physical fragments that were once a part of the person are the best link.

Armed thusly, I take the little bit of purple painted toenails my pad revealed, and trace the pattern of the fingerprints along the wall, and twist the distance like a razor cutting through paper…

The distance between people and objects is finite. Finite things can be overcome. Infinity is the province of the supernal…such is my will. I will the distance away.

I see Tink on a rickety bus, obviously somewhere south as false dawn turns a desert sky she stares at a darkish shade of blue. There is not a cloud to be seen.

There are 14 passengers on the bus. This prevents me from just getting her as the Lie and the Abyss both would tear me apart.

I twist my vision again, using the same principle but in regard to time. It is a little harder for me, but time is based on the perception of it…by focusing the will on it, the Supernally gifted can step outside it’s bounds or spool it like a thread. I see Tink get on the bus in the night; the sign says Ciudad de Juarez in Spanish. I look at her ticket and recall the take-out receipt dates.

Smoke had been gone a week, and Tink decided she wanted to see Mexico four days ago. Clever girl, but why the fuck would she want to go to outside of Juarez?

I dig around Tink’s room somemore to find a checked out copy of several UFO/Searching the Unknown books, some magazines, and printouts on cattle mutilations. If she used a computer to look for similar items, it had to have been at the same library.

This part still didn’t quite add up. But I knew where she was, so I just had to wait until she was alone.

I spend an hour watching her in the present as she gets off the bus and looks up at the sky grinning as no one is about. Even through the connection I feel her scan the skies as though she had new eyes, and then watch her break gravity like it was some simple rule a 13 year old breaks.

The girl loves to fly.

She ends up flying so fast it takes me a bit to get a lock on her as I twist myself to her locale near what appears to be a cattle farm.

I am slightly disturbed at the disorientation I feel as I twist to a moving point in space, realizing I am where Tink was not too long ago rather than right next to her.

I am equally disturbed that I see her 17 feet away from something hunched over a dead cow in the predawn hours. The “something” is crypto-zoologist’s dream of half lizard bird with 6 inch claws and the gait of turkey on methamphetamines. Tink is grinning like a girl who found a new puppy.

It all begins to make sense, and I don’t know whether to laugh or run screaming. She had read up on the Chupacabra, used her supernal senses to track the damn thing and decided to get one for a pet, familiar, whatever…

And “Fido” just noticed her.

It leaps at her in a flash, obviously faster than her. I feel my nose bleed as I twist time to cover the distance, the Abyss given its price in my pain for it.

“NO! Get back! Aaaaaahhhh!”

Set to a girl’s scream, I calculate the distance and correlate how much is between Tink, the thing, and I. I pull the guns Sunny made for me in one quick motion, everything a variable of the equations of distance, angles, and movement. I note the velocity and mass as a footnote of the rounds I put downrange and place each bullet in its proper place as I see it. I move where it will be, and continue firing.

That’s when she scares me more than the thing.

She, covered in wounds from its claws, screams one more time in the tongue of Atlantis…I hear it for what it is.

“GET BACK!”

I see a flash as molecular friction burns the atmosphere around me. I feel heat, pressure, and wind as telekinetic force tears the thing to shreds as if it didn’t exist. The desert floor underneath us shocks into lines of molten glass. I hear the crack as oxygen rushes back in to the hole she had torn with her will.

Imagine if you will the power of a 1000 pound bomb in the hands of a poorly supervised 13 year old girl. Imagine the thought that outside the eyes of her brother, who can stop her from shattering the firmament we live on, she is as unfettered as a hurricane.

And it hits me:

I have my guns out and could end up saving lives by ending hers now.

I bury the thought as fast as it occurs to me, and a crying girl is in my arms.

I carry her home via a portal to my apartment and buy her ice cream. She ends up spending a few days with Sunny and gets screamed at a bit by Smoke.

I never talk about that day to most. I even tell folks it was a jaguar or big cat to keep the details hazy. It’s a funny anecdote now, and folks say it was a nice thing I did saving her. I even came to love her like a sister myself.

It still doesn’t mean I forgot what I thought. That makes me not a good person.
 
 
Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: The Beatles-Happiness Is A Warm Gun
 
 
crimson_tales
Wretched and pure
Tricky and dangerous
Do not question
Or challenge your fate
A promise written in blood
Take life for pay

Yours is not to ask why
Yours is to do and die
Professional killer

KMFDM, Professional Killer


I felt it swimming around me, as real as the skin on my flesh....Fate....

I'm in a well appointed study I have come to via a portal. It's not one of mine and I'm the most uncomfortable I have been since my heart snapped in two. I'm staring at a butler who looks like he stepped right from Queen Victoria's court, but other than his clothing, his features are unremarkable. That's a neat trick, I've seen it before.

The butler looked up with the vellum in his hand as he set down the sports bag.

The bag was what I had just given him. In it were the 4 left hands of the dead Seers team along with a pair from my "back-up" from the errand his employer sent me on.

"My mistress commends you on dispatching these two groups...they both were quite close to the truth of the matter."

Part of me wants to hit him. Part of me knows this is necessary.

The vellum is in my hand. I feel the Awakened world tug as I put my name in the tongue of dead Atlantis on the contract.

"I agree to serve so that others may see what I will not..."

The butler then hands me a long lacquered case from the sitting couch to his left. It is sealed with runes that vanish to my touch.

"In it is a tool that will help. More shall have to fall to pave the way according to the mistress. Given your background...you should know how this works. I know you have a close  relationship
with several Moros."

I look inside the case...

It is simple in its design, not quite a knife, not quite a sword. The wavy kris curve of the blade and weight on the handle feels like an extension of my own hand as I pick it up. I recall what Isabel taught me about balance with blades, and this one fits like a glove. The practitioners of Silat believe these blades to be an extension of the warriors soul, a tool, an artifact of martial and spiritual centering. The look of the hilt implies a more modern design added to this ancient pattern. The blade was more reflective than quicksilver and full of supernal strength.

I know what this is for. Part of me wants to hear a .45 shell casing hit the floor as a piece of lead makes a sonic boom escaping the barrel of my gun, painting this nice study with Jeeves here's brains.

I just nod and take it out of the box as the Fate magic around me seals mine...

I think this is for them. I think this is for her.

I am building a better world. No matter what it takes...
 
 
Current Mood: determined
Current Music: KMFDM-Professional Killer
 
 
crimson_tales

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic, The Police

Memory is a funny thing. This place reminds me of all this.

I’m standing out by a cold, rocky beach outside of DC along a back road by the Ocean Gateway and I-50. It’s a special place to me even though most wouldn’t find it romantic. But if you catch it at the right time night, the lights from DC in the distance reflect off the water just so…at least they have for me since that night.

I come back to it every New Years Eve, and run my hands through the rock and sand. It reminds me that each New Year is worth living if it means I can live like I did that night…

But I’m not morbid, no not me…

After securing my date I headed out to my new apartment to change and clean up for my dinner date. I was running on excitement and coming down from the adrenaline of the day’s exploits, and wondering what it was that had me so fixated on Sunny. I don’t prowl like Smoke does, but I’m no angel….and yet I felt like an idiotic teenager inside.

Confident though I may seem, Sunny had that effect on me. She still does.

My cab dropped me off at my apartment, happily funded by Uncle Sugar and the rest of the Federal Government for my efforts to win the “War on Drugs.” I chuckle a bit each time I hear that. It’s more like one guy trying to plug 25 holes in a dam with his fingers, not a war. But it’s the work I’m good at…at least the work the world is fine with me being good at. I stopped by, check my mail, showered, and changed. I decided on a black T-shirt with some nice jeans. On top of it all I wear my normal leather coat. I figured Sunny would be dressing casual but still nice.

Right before six I pulled back into her shop. I again met with the guy at the front, a barrel of a guy who was called E, who completed the redneck look he sported with his NASCAR shirt and coveralls. He gave me a little static about keeping Sunny safe, but I think the slight twinge of my southern accent assured him a little.

Sunny walks in at this point and I watched her blush a little. I grin and say,

“Good evening.”

“It certainly is. Have you had a look at your car? She pulled through rather nicely.”

“No time like the present to find out.”

I walk by the passenger door and open it up for her.

“I was thinking Mexican? You know any good places around here?”

She hopped in to the car saying,

“I am sure I can find something so we don’t starve."

 I start the engine and Sally sounded brand new along with her lack of holes. Smoke wasn’t blowing his namesake up my ass when they said this place does good work.


“You got rid of the slight rattle, you are good.”

She smiled again, just like a kid who gets a bike on Christmas day. I feel better just being in the presence of that smile, like coming in from the cold next to a fire. I always have.

“You’re the one that called me the best. I’ll give you directions…”

We end up in this nice family run Mexican restaurant just outside of DC’s main drag. It somewhat amazed me that a mom and pop place like this was still running this close to all the chains. Then I looked around…in restaurants if people of the ethnicity of the place are eating there, then the food is good. That was the case here. We sit and had drinks, me a Tecate with lime, and her some fruity drink if I recall. She perked up when I ordered in Spanish. The waiter seemed a little surprised too. She asked,

“Where did you learn Spanish?”

“I picked it up in the military and some other places. I used to know a little Arabic and Farsi but I am very rusty.”

“So you were in the military? What do you do now?”

“I was in the Marines for a few years and got out after the Gulf and went back to New Orleans and worked on the police force there for a few years. I had good results and got hired on by the DEA after a bust. I’m working with federal liaison officers for overseas stuff in Mexico and such, so I travel a good bit.”

“What about you?”

She went into how she and E got the shop they are in, and how they cater to “certain parties” in that she was referring to the Awakened world. I figured we would talk more on that when the meal was over and I was driving Sally. More than anything else, I got the impression that she lived life to its fullest no matter what. I must admit that was half of the attraction, because I was always risking mine.

After the meal, which was quite good even if the chile peppers were too hot on her side dish and I had to ask the waiter to bring out some milk, we got into Sally starting driving back.

 A little feeling in my head screamed “Carpe Diem” and I asked,

“So what would you say if we tested her out?”

She looked a little taken aback again, and a little hesitant.

“C’mon, it’s not like I’m going to get a ticket after all. And I’ve never met the mechanic who didn’t like to go fast in cars.”

Seeing as how Sunny was the first mechanic I’d spent more than 20 minutes talking to, this was a gamble on my part.

“OK….I guess that makes sense.”

Her expression was that of a person getting on a roller coaster for the first time, but wanted to know all the fun others were having.

We then hit I-50 around 8:40 after driving around the city a bit. This was when I decided to really let the car loose. She started to scream and laugh as I weaved in between traffic like one of E’s NASCAR heroes. I dusted a black and white on the way too, but before he called back-up I imagine he ran my plates and figured I was undercover or on my way to some bust. At one point past the bridge near a rocky beach I pull over laughing slightly, her voice a mix of happiness and panic all at once.

“Are you NUTS? You were going past 100 by all of those cars! And that turn! And you outran that cop! Are you crazy?”

“Maybe a little, but you had fun. Besides, I think I couldn’t ask you out again if I got you killed you know?”

This immediately made her attitude change as she smiled again, looked up, and then she did what surprised me the most…

“Oh to hell with it Sunny….”

She kissed me. It was like this bundle of fire that had been waiting to just let go, and I felt something beyond any physical connection pass. Yes that sounds corny, but that’s how it felt.

She pulled back and said,

“Wow.”

“And you call me dangerous? And I’ll take that as a yes for a second date.”

“You could say that.”

“Do you want me to drop you off at the shop or your place?”

“My place…next time you can pick me up there…and one other thing.

Her eyes lit up a little.

“Yeah?”

“Can I drive her home?”

 
 
Current Mood: good
Current Music: Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic, The Police
 
 
crimson_tales

Let’s make the best of the situation
Before I finally go insane
Please don’t say we’ll never find a way
And tell me all my love’s in vain

-Eric Clapton, Layla
 
I truly hate my car getting messed up. I like my car. But I can honestly say that this particular instance of vehicular damage was worth what I discovered as a result….the love of my life.

I call my car Sally. Sally is a Black ’68 Black Mustang that I got as part of a major seizure, just like those police auctions you see advertised on TV. So yeah…Mustang Sally.
 
Needless to say I was “working” with some of my less than reputable “associates” in the DC area when Sally attracted a number of bullets that she wouldn’t have otherwise…
 
I’m driving past the Beltway after serving a simple summons for a Federal Warrant and when I got “the call,” the caller ID said “Smoke.”

Fuck.
 
If Vince is calling me, this doesn’t bode well. Other than him being a total asshole, he’s my friend. If my friend is calling me in the AM, it means he’s proper screwed.

“Janus, I need a ride.”
 
OK… if “Don Juan Killer” needs a ride even if he’s in trouble, I have to fuck with him. It’s the principle of the thing.

“I’m not a screwed wop criminal taxi service Smoke. And I’m busy.”
 
“I’m not fucking kidding Janus. I have to get THE FUCK out of here. Yesterday.”
 
“First off where is ‘here?’ And why the hurry?”
 
“Well…”

Following this, I get a story that I would label as bullshit if I didn’t know how Vince lived or operated. Needless to say, he was working in DC looking after someone for Gabe, and was doing a little “side-action.” His “side-action” involved some deal with a DC gun-running ring, where Vince had managed to do his part in removing the competition, and he was without vehicular transportation as it seems Mr. 12-Gauge and Smoke’s car had a heated conversation. Normally this wouldn’t be an issue, but Vince still had people that would soon be shooting at him in the area, the cops were coming, and I’ve read novels shorter than his rap sheet.

To make a long story short, and a little co-location on a side road to get there quick, I was picking up my buddy Smoke at this unsafe locale. By the end of the day (and a lot of Vince bitching about my driving) my car had some holes in it, my seat was covered in 9mm shell casings, and I was enduring a half mad Italian screaming in my ear…

“Did you see those fucking prags when I unloaded on them man? It was fan-fucking-tastic man!”

“Smoke… this is my working car. As in cop work”

“And?”

“I’m smart enough to have changed the plates, but I think the local PD will be looking for this make and model with motherfucking BULLET HOLES in it! Do you know how hard it is to get bodywork done on a 68’ Mustang?”

"So? Dump this bitch.”

“I like this car. I like how it handles. I like it not having holes in it. Do you see where I’m going with this one you brain-dead moolie?”

“Chill bacon…

I hate when he calls me bacon. You’d think I have a complex. He digs a card out of his jacket and hands it to me.

“…call this guy to set things up and then go to this address. The shop is under the radar. They’re Awakened and awesome. If you have the money, they can make this bitch fly.”

As soon as he mentioned money, I give him the stare. He gives me his “Asshole” glance, and then I have a wad of Benjamin Franklin and am dropping him off at a nice house in the better part of DC. As he got out he did give the nod that I equate to a “Thanks” from him. We give each other our obligatory smile and "Fuck Peru" quip, and I'm off.

After putting my normal plates on, I call the card and get an appointment set up for later in the day at the shop. Expecting some ancient grease monkey in the shop after I drive Sally in, I see this dark haired young thing with an odd colored eye set in beautiful face. She looked hot in a jumpsuit, with curves in the right places, and under the grease I could swear she blushed a little when a grinned at her.

I watched her run her hand along Sally’s hood, and felt a connection grow between her and the car, visible to me through what some would call “arcane means.” I feel the air pulse and I know she’s working with the same forces, just in a different focus.

I asked her,

"Think it will take long to fix?"

She seemed a little surprised, taken out of her reverie with my car, and answered,

"I…Uh, I'm sure I can fix her up in a couple of hours. They don't call me the best for nothing.”

Her voice wavered between excitement and confidence. Then she turned and smiled at me. I’ve been shot, and felt less than I felt at that moment. She had this smile and way about her that just hit me. And it hit me hard.

“Well forgive me for being forward, but if it’s going to be fixed in a couple of hours and seeing as how I don’t like eating alone in a new town, I’d love the company if you’d like to get dinner.”

That’s when she looked like I had walked in and done something rather unexpected…and I could tell she liked that I asked.

“It’s not really my policy to go out with strange men who drive into my shop with bullet holes in their car. To top it off, I don’t even know your name.”

“Janus…you can call me Dennis though. Calling someone a Roman God’s name while getting a bite to eat is a little noticeable, either that or some redneck will think I have a girl’s name. I think I have my class ring here and I’m also looking for a prom date….”

She laughed at this. Laughter is a good sign from experience.

“I’m Sunny…and I guess a bite to eat isn’t too bad. I get off at six. And she’ll be done by then for sure. You should treat her better you know?”

“I did bring her to the best didn’t I?”

She fired that smile at me again. We were mutually doomed even if she didn’t know it.

“You flatter all the girls like this Dennis?”

I grinned in return as I was getting into my cab.

“Only the one’s I like Sunny. Only the one’s I like.”

 
 
Current Mood: creative
Current Music: Eric Clapton, Layla